Well hello again Instagram 👋🏼
Let me start by first thanking the people who have sent me kind messages and supported me over the past whirlwind of months. There are days I’m alright and there are days I’m not ok at all. I’ve seen some comments saying I owe an explanation and I’d like to clarify that my mental health is 100x more important than the explanation of my actions to the fans of the show. I wasn’t ready to acknowledge it and I wasn’t even aware how unready I was until I had an actual panic attack at the reunion.
Speaking of the reunion, I agreed to do it before any information had been released. I knew allegations about me had been made the night before we filmed the reunion but I for some reason didn’t read the actual texts and when I saw them pull up on a screen I felt like I was in a nightmare only that nightmare was about to be viewed by 50 million people and I had 3 seconds to think of a response.
That being said I admitted I was wrong, I admitted I wanted to talk to an actual therapist vs my first time discussing it being filmed in front of an audience.
Since then, I have been seeing a therapist and slowly acknowledging what I need to do to better myself.
Also, just because I said some untruthful things I want to clarify I do actually fuck with the Notebook. Who doesn’t love Ryan Gosling come on🤷🏻♂️
